You guys, pregnant people are EVERYWHERE!  I’m not yet one of them, but have you noticed that?!  Everywhere I turn, there’s a beautiful baby bump!

I know that part of the reason I’m noticing this is because I want a baby bump of my own, so I’m primed to see them more than your average bear.  But last night we went to see a very pregnant Amanda Palmer play her last show before giving birth and before the concert we had dinner and our waitress was also very pregnant.  I mean, when was the last time you had a waitress who was waddling around carrying your dinner as well as a fetus?

I know sometimes when people have been trying to get pregnant for awhile they feel jealous or resentful when they see pregnant women or newborns.  I am not there right now.  Right now, when I see a pregnant woman I am reverent.  I want to stand close, and hold her stomach and face and hands.  I want to tell her how beautiful and sexy and bodyfull she is.  I want to ask her how she got to this place, and what the world looks like to her now, and hear the song of her heart.  I want to be close to her in every way possible.  I want to call her my sister.  The pull to do those things is ridiculously strong… but it’s also not generally socially acceptable.  So I just look at her with love and maybe say something sort of awkward but true, and hope that she gets it.  I also look at Matthew with what I imagine is a look of crazed excitement, he is very patient with me.

My current cycle started without having to take progesterone.  I was so surprised and happy and grateful for my body in that moment!  I’ve been tracking my cycle and peeing on sticks and I’m actually ovulating right now!  If you can’t tell already, I’m feeling really positive and hopeful.  I’m taking my vitamins and seducing Matthew every chance I get.  I’m drinking lots of water, and also taking guaifenesin, which is an expectorant meant to loosen mucus in your lungs when you have a cough, but also happens to work for your cervical mucus as well, helping the sperm make their great trek to the fallopian tubes safely.  (Now you will never look at Mucinex or Robitussin the same).

For the record, I also ovulated in May and obviously did not get pregnant… I was not feeling very good then, but I’ll write more about that when I eventually do our monthly update for June.

I won’t be able to take a pregnancy test until late July, so we’ll see what happens.  Honestly, the odds don’t seem to be in the favor of conception, but apparently it happens all the time, so it could happen for us too.  We can hope!